Day2

Aside from after classes, today was just like other days. I went to school, listened to the rambling of our teachers, waited for recess, ate some snacks while talking to my friends, more ramblings from teachers, waited for lunch, ate lunch… You know the routine. At each moment, I felt as if time was moving slower than ever. Anyway, I’ll skip those and go to the more interesting part.

Rinei and I were in the school roof, as usual. She was talking to me about her views on love, her favorite topic. Honestly, only around 20% of what she talked about registered in my mind. I loved watching her smile as she shared her feelings with me, as if I could never get tired of looking at her. Of course, I don’t just stare at her the whole time. I say some things once in a while so she won’t feel like she’s the only one talking. One part of the conversation I remember goes somewhat like this:

“Have you ever fallen in love?” I asked her.

“Me? No. Not yet!” she answered me, somewhat embarrassed. She leaned on the handrail, facing the horizon, her chin resting on her crossed arms on top of the handrail. “If I could tell my heart when to fall in love, I’d tell it to keep waiting until I find the person who I could love for the rest of my life.”

I walked beside her and leaned my back against the handrail. “If you could tell your heart when to fall in love, then how would you know if you could love a certain person? After all, you won’t feel love towards that person…” I asked, looking at her.

She turned her head to face the sky, as if to ponder on what I just said. “Hmm, I think I know what you mean. And you’re right…” she paused to stand up properly, brushing off her school uniform with her hand, and then she faced me. “Okay, then I just wish I wouldn’t fall in love until it is with the person I could love for the rest of my life.”

“You have weird wishes,” I laughed.

She turned to the horizon once again, “I just don’t want to be in a position where I have to hurt a person I once loved just to be happy with another person I love. When the time comes that I fall in love, I want the feeling to remain forever…” then she faced me again. “Except if the person I love is just plain bad.”

“Well, you could just stay loyal with the person you first gave your love to. Loving a person requires sacrifice, after all.”

She smiled and turned to the horizon once more. “Yeah… you’re right. It’s just that I don’t think it would be fair to be with a person while having someone else on your mind. It wouldn’t be fair to that person, I mean.”

“I guess…” I muttered, not knowing if she heard me, but not wanting to repeat myself either.

After a few moments of silently enjoying the atmosphere, Rinei told me it’s time for her to go and left. I watched her leave the school grounds from the rooftop before leaving.